Life on the road is hard. But it easy. And then it’s hard again. It’s easy to lose sight of what is really important to your life when you are trapped in a bubble. While the earth is round, our lives are much more complicated than a bubble. Think about the properties of a bubble. Its thin translucent walls shine and wipe your cares away until it bursts into small bits of matter never to be seen again. We can’t live our lives in little bubbles or all we have are tiny shiny bits of matter.
I have been on tour for the past 2 months, dancing, doing what I love, and somehow I have found myself relatively unhappy the majority of the time. How can this be? It’s because I’ve been so caught up in all the little bubble moments of meandering cliques, talent battles, he said she saids, and self doubt that I’ve lost sight of the bigger picture. I came on this tour to better myself as a dancer, to embrace the Indian side if my heritage, and to give myself, Miss director lady, a break. The latter being the hardest bubble to let go of.
I’m used to being in charge, in dance, at work, at party planning, at basically everything I do, which I guess makes me a leader, but it’s also exhausting. I was excited to finally just be a dancer and help someone else’s vision shine through. But that’s the problem, someone else’s vision is not my vision. It’s hard to let go and not be able to give input. Let’s pop the miss director lady bubble for just a second and take a chill pill. Let me wade my feet in the pool and take a spot in the back row and just coast for a second. Life doesn’t always have to be so hard even though it usually is. Burst that.
All the other iridescent spheres of fleeting nonsense should be burst on first contact. Who cares if people don’t like me every minute of everyday? Who cares if I messed up that one time for a half a count? Who cares if I’m not the best? Who cares if that person didn’t have lunch with me today? Etc. Well, I care, but I’m trying not to. Because in the long run those little things don’t matter. What matters are the big things that make you who you are, that make you happy for eternity.
I care about my art, I care about my family, I care about being optimistic, I care about my friends, I care about love, I care about friendliness, I care about inspiration, I care about health, I care about fitness, I care about longevity, and I care about the world. Those are not bubbles. Those are solid objects, strong sturdy, and there for me when I’m ready to burst.
Its important to embrace the bubble moments because they can be joyous but they are temporary. Stay strong to what you know you have, the dreams you want to pursue and the amazing future that lies ahead of you. Because you are more beautiful, more solid, and more important than a floating ball of sparkly air.